Since the first of 2012 while desperately seeking God's face, after a 40 day fast... I have entered into the "sweetest spot" of my 22 year love affair with the Jesus. Mind you, the prior 20 years I had been a quote un quote "Christian." I was however, a "casual Christian," and sought God as a means to an end (better life now, eternal life later.) What I had missed in that quotient was GOD HIMSELF! My attitude as a young "Believer" was, "I'm good to go...I've got my golden ticket to Heaven....I'll acknowledge God when it's comfortable or I need something, and basically live my best life now." Oh how I had missed it, and thereby, missed God in the process.
It wasn't until my early 20's that I began to seek to really know Him for myself. One of my favorite verses is Jer. 29:13 "And when you seek ME you shall find ME, when you search for ME with all your Heart. I will be found by you says the Lord of Hosts!" Jesus said in John 17:3 "This is ETERNAL LIFE- that you might KNOW HIM, the one True God." This speaks of a real, personal, living, abiding, passionate, deep, intimate relationship with the living God!! For the past 22 years I have been growing in this intimate love relationship and I had a significant breakthrough early Spring this year, that will forever change the rest of my life! (I'll save that for another "God-Story"...but I had to whet your appetite!)
Now back to this past week April 2012. God has recently (since my fast in January) rocked my world!! He Has begun to unveil Heaven and allow me to experience His Kingdom. Isn't that what we are supposed to pray...that God's Kingdom come and God's will be done on earth (now) just as it is in Heaven!?
Just how aware are you of God's constant concern for you in the details of your life? If He truly knows every hair on our head and has them numbered, and it is estimated that we can lose approx. 166 hairs a day, then by reason we can conclude that not only does God know when we lost a singular strand, but when and what caused it. David says in Psalm 139 "How precious are your thought toward me O God! If I were to number them they would be more than the sand on the sea!!" Do you really know and believe the Love God cherishes for you? In 1 Peter 5:7-8 God beckons us to cast our cares upon Him because He cares for us, affectionately and watchfully!
So a week or so ago I was mowing the 13 acres we care for as renters of an amazing property God literally placed in our lap (yet another God-Story). Our land-Lord owns a very expensive Kuboto Tractor that I use to mow with. I try to be careful and have since learned how to grease all the parts and respect her for the beautiful machine that she is. However, there were no warnings when I sequentially (nearly back to back) ran over a steel hammer (my lovely daughter Elianna had left near a tree after building a tree-fort) and a brick that was hidden in tall grass. The clunking sound was horrifying and I cringed as the gigantic blades shut themselves off from the blunt force of the objects. I raised the base and inspected the damage. The steel case was bent so badly that the blades could not turn round. With each futile spin and full-forced blows with a large steel hammer, I tried to get the blades to rotate. It was a useless effort. The hammer bounced back with each solid strike as if I were using a feather. Details excluded, I could not possibly tell our land-lord and ask him to fix this. So I took a deep breath, looked up to Heaven and out of my mouth like a helpless babe I asked my Heavenly Father to have His angels fix the tractor. I can't move that dent one millimeter, let alone the full quarter inch needed to allow the blades to rotate freely, but my angels which scripture says are ministers to heirs of salvation, and assigned to keep watch over me in all my ways (Hebrews 1:14, Psalm 91) could easily fix them. I prayed that simple prayer, walked the 40 feet to the barn to return the hammer and came back.
I kid you not, I stepped up, started the engine, and pulled the lever to crank the blades..... and instead of the extremely loud clunk clunk clunk of forged steel on steel then shutting off.....they SPUN!!! Not only did they spin, but they did so seamlessly and without any noise whatsoever!! The SOLID STEEL 1/4 inch steel dent was miraculously pushed out!! I smiled the broadest, warmest, loving smile to Heaven and whispered 'Thank You."
I cast that burden of fixing a tractor I couldn't fix unto the Lord and His response..."See how I care for you!"
Oh Beloved...ask! We have not because we ask not!!! How your Heavenly Father loves to give you good gifts!!